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he wrote a  blog about trudy

one of his  closest gurl friends

it made me sad

i couldnt take  if off my mind

maybe  im  jealous?..i dont know

i  dont  have the  right to be jealous

its a relief though coz now

i realized im still capable of jealousy

but what good would it do?

a couple of years debate

between  my heart and  mind

is not enough to come up with a verdict

jealousy only means one thing

and im not sure im ready to gamble again

everytime  someone gets too close

i make sure i pull myself out in time

knowing that when i become emotionally dependent

ill be weak  and totally vulnerable

‘guess i pulled out myself too late now

to get affected by a simple write-up

i dont like  this

this is not good

i hate this feeling

its making me shit scared…